There’s something so reassuring about knowing I am not finished. I understand many people like closure. I know they want some defined moment that says, “I’ve arrived” or “I’m done…finally”. Life rarely presents perfect moments, so for me, knowing that I can get better, do better, learn something that I’ll apply the next time, is both gratifying, and comforting. I don’t have to beat myself up for falling short, for not having the right words just when I needed them, for not knowing the sequence, the consequences, the heartbreak. Oh we type A’s can be tough on ourselves.
A good decision. Installation of an original South End door…Perfect.
I attempt to preemptively prepare for this – I do it with varying degrees of success. Today, I know that I got some things wrong. We boarded before we had the electrician wire – mistake. We painted the kitchen cabinets before we ripped out the countertops – mistake. We are still in the process of negotiating AC, and will have to enclose before we have approval – delay – additional cost. I’ve spent hundreds of dollars sampling colors for the new place. If anything is certain, despite my best efforts, one or more of the colors I select, will not turn out the way I intended.
C’est la vie. Note to self, don’t do that again. There will be another opportunity. While I will surely make new errors in judgement, and come across situations I hadn’t been faced with before, they will be new, and I will learn from them too. Sometimes these lessons feel like a black eye, and sometimes they feel like a gift.
Left: Dove White – Right: Cloud White, Benjamin Moore
This tiny little Hanson Street property feel like a gift, even if I do have dark circle under my eyes. It is going to be a petite bijou – a little jewel, and what gal doesn’t love jewelry? No gal, I know. My charming little bedrooms are going to be havens – the corridor leading you to the a perfectly aligned point, each door installed at an angle. My not so subtle reference to the bow of a boat. My need to express my coastal upbringing ever-present in my design.
“To banish imperfection is to destroy expression, to check exertion, to paralyze vitality.” John Ruskin
Left: Lavender Blue. Right Top: Violet Mist. Right Bottom: Whirlpool – all Benjamin Moore…it’s the best!
Cheers to vitality. Apparently I have a lot of it!